pengzkuletz

err…I dont know where I am going to start, not sure either what is this all about. I think this is just something I would like you to feel about what I feel.

As time passes me by, I realized how much I missed you. Every day you are on my mind thinkin of you. I do often ask my self if do you get a chance to think of me too…or how often you call my name when you are sad…say it what was your heart wants to tell me?

you know its really hard to hide this feeling from someone you love. i want to tell you what are my feelings for you but my fear of rejection comes over me. I dont know what should I do or what should I say… all I want is you ,to love me the way I do.

I thought being hurt before is one of the tools from coping to my feelings right now, but I was wrong. ’til now Im still keeping your words inside me. I know loving you this way is taking all the risk…It is sad when I think of you holding hands with someone…made me cry and made me so jealous. *damn*

tell me…is this how we wil supposed to be…too far to reach…to far to hold each others hand…and to far to love you…why cant we be together like we were used to be…dont you think I’m being ridiculous of thinkin about you…yeah may be this is so deep, but this is me being inlove with you, not only a year not only a month but until
now. Though you rejected me it wasnt the reason for me to stop from loving you.

Only time can tell, how long I am gonna wait for you, for your smile, and for you love. I won’t beg you but I could ask you instead if you could smile for me? would you try to love me? and would you try to be with me?

what ever may happen to both of us…
I will always be Pengz.